now that you've found it, it's gone.

good evening, folks.

procrastinating.
as usual.
plotting.
(as usual.)
thinking.

anyhow, it was so incredibly sunny today.
so sunny, and so uneventful.

it's ok.
i'd rather it be uneventful than be full of crazy mishaps.
er, well, ,no.
because this summer was a little bit of both.

which brings me to my next point, i found some memories of the summer laying around my computer.
strange, strange memories.

one is of the radiohead concert.
which was quite surreal.
torrential rain, lots of mud, cartoon-laden rain ponchos, diet coke, almond butter sandwiches, sound checks, fireworks, crying, screaming, singing along, wellies, waiting in line, a green plastic bag, an ugly red raincoat, a nearly dead best friend, lots of drugs and beer (not mine, but the crowds'), crowd-surfing to videotape, bright lights, guitar solos, thom yorke's beautiful face, jonny greenwood's shiny hair, a karma police singalong initiated by none other than myself and astrid, and lots of emotions, just to name a few of the memories i retain from that night.

now that you've found it, it's gone.

so now i'm here, in front of my computer, the weather chilly, the sidewalks icy, and things inside my head pretty different.
it's not that i've gotten crazier, it's that i'm crazy in a different way.
it's hard to for me to even understand, let alone explain it.
it's just hard to go to school sometimes.
and do my work.
and go to parties.
and be a teenager.
without thinking too much about it.
it's even hard to string five words together to make a sentence without fumbling about or getting frustrated.

anyway, i must dash.

i leave you with the memories of my memories of summer 2008.

no more going to the dark side, with your flying saucer eyes.