t u e s d a y ?

so last night i saw a movie.
an amazing movie.
a movie that i could probably watch again and again.
it was called trainspotting.

i think it was the mix of music, drugs, and scottish accents that really got me.
it's a little heavy, but i like those strange, dramatic movies with crazy camera angles and people running with a catchy new order song playing.

i thought it would be a little cliche, but it really wasn't.
there was something almost kubric-esque about it.
but not really.

also, i've just bought a book called haunted by chuck palahniuk.
it's really strange.
not surprising, coming from him.
you can read one of the bizarre gruesome short stories from the book here:

http://chuckpalahniuk.net/features/shorts/guts

although, i warn you, it's not for the faint of heart.
if you decide to read one of chuck's infamously weird books, i suggest invisible monsters.

since we're in such a weird dark mood, i'll give you a weird dark picture...

reckoner, can't take it with yer

...ok, so it's not that weird and not that dark, but i like it.

today has been so unbelievably un-fucking-productive.
i don't care much, because march break is in a week.

t h a n k y o u, lord.

so, nobody ever leaves comments, but i really want opinions on something...
should i get the cartilage in my ear pierced or should i get a tattoo, or both?

i feel unaccomplished, skeptical, musical, and lonely at the moment.

worried about a dear friend of mine.
or two.

why do i always feel the need to save people?
to reach out my hand and pull them up out of the dark well, when i'm stuck in my own well of sorts.

ahh, i can't write right now.
i'm too confused.
once again, i feel like my brains have spilled out all over the place like egg yolks and i can't really focus or think about one thing too long.
i think i need a slap in the face.
i need a reality check.
i need someone to say, "luna, snap the fuck out of it."
i need someone to make me a nice cup of tea and take me out somewhere distracting and noisy.
i need a nap.
or a break.
or a shot of vodka.

i joke.

song for you:



ya might wanna pause the other music player.