everything is absolutely insane.
even me.
(but we already established that ages ago.)
life in a glass house
it's rare that i lack words to describe how i feel, but now is one of those moments.
i'm stressed, excited, confused, frustrated, irritated, fed up, exhausted, full of energy ...
all these thoughts rush into my head at the same time, and i can barely organize myself enough to pick a song on my ipod or read a paragraph or hold a conversation.
something so simple as to pouring a glass of water brings me as much anxiety as writing an exam.
yet... i feel so calm.
i feel like nothing can faze me.
i feel like if i just keep my head above t
he water for long enough, i'll make it.
and i'll be better than just ok.
soon it'll be summer, and all my worries and cares can be defenestrated (i adore that word).
and the mere though of waking up late to a bright blue sky, with not even a hint of the thought of "shit, i have so much to do."
because it's summer and all there is to do is get freckled by the sun and jam in the grass and explore the outskirts of town, by taking the metro to wherever you damn well please.
(i'm choosing to ignore work, if you haven't noticed, because i'm in denial.)
there there
a h h h h ! summer!
it's so near.
freedom, people.
it's at our doorstep.
better summer than death, i say.
because i have been there done that on multiple occasions, accompanying someone who was a little too friendly with the grim reaper...
although it wasn't their fault.
those times were hard.
and as that same time period approaches, i see how far i've come.
how much everyone has changed, and how positively identical some things stayed.
well, it's been an interesting year, to say the least.
but enough about reminiscing, there are plenty of other things to talk about.
/write about?
unfortunately, there aren't enough hours in a fucking day to say all i have in my head.
so i'll try and continue my ramblings a little later.
'till then.
sail me to the moon
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