the saints who don't wanna be found

[note; i couldn't get the songs i wanted on playlist or seeqpod so just listen to these:

• goodnight bad morning - the kills
• monsters - band of horses
• the end's not near - band of horses
• lay lady lay - bob dylan
• i want you - bob dylan
• deep blue sea - grizzly bear
• weird fishes/arpeggi - radiohead
• in limbo - radiohead
• look into the air - explosions in the sky
• he doesn't know why - fleet foxes
• moth's wings - passion pit
• i would say something from dear science but that was my last playlist.
• in a beautiful place out in the country - boards of canada

... not in that order]

the sun has finally arrived (!)

until now, summer has been nothing but rain, jazzfest, colds, and a little bit of green.

but now, summer has exploded in a whirlwind of intrigue, long bus rides, music, thought, sunshine, hangovers, creativity, and an inkling of hope.

my god, is that optimism ?????

(nope!)

2 and a half hours to get home from baie d'urfe ...

was it worth it ?

yes.

you know when you wake up in an unfamiliar place, but it feels so safe ?

it's like you left all the bad stuff back at home.

some people call it being lost or being homesick or whatever, but i love it.

and then there's doubt, a completely different feeling.

no matter how much you tell yourself something isn't true, you can never dismiss the negative thoughts completely.

it's evil, negativity.

insecurity.

ugh.

anyhow, i guess what i'm trying to say is summer is starting to feel more like summer, and i am starting to feel slightly more complex.

if that makes any sense.

my head is more clear and my head is more cloudy.

but it's okay, because thinking is good.

and not thinking is good, too.

so on that note, i bid you adieu !

no photos, cam still busted.

(F U C K F U C K F U C K F U C K F U C K !)

xx